Got the call from the embryology lab today.
Unfortunately, no miracle for me.
It looks like Little Embie and Tiny are arresting. Today, Little Embie has only grown from 3 cells to 4. Tiny on the other hand has not grown, and has stayed at 2 cells. They are in a stage where they should have been 3 days ago.
The lab will continue to monitor the embies one final day, but not beyond that. I'm almost certain there won't be a transfer for us. They will call again tomorrow morning with a final report and next steps.
Obviously, I am terribly disappointed with where we are right now. I was feeling OK about it this morning until I told my Babe the news over the phone. Then I broke down crying.
However, I am feeling a peace about this. It doesn't mean that I'm not sad or disappointed about this. I'm sure I'll be envious of other IVFers that make it to transfers, BFPS or birth announcements. These are emotions I just can't help feeling, but I know that things will turn out OK. I continue to hang on to the promise that God has plans for my Babe and I, plans to prosper us, and not to harm us. Plans to give us hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).
I have to remember that faith and feelings are not the same thing.
Thank you all for the amazing outpouring of prayers and well wishes. You guys are amazing. I have never received such a huge response my posts as the last couple of days'. I will continue to post, so I hope you will continue to walk this journey with me. We'll see where this takes us.