Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Today would have been my embryo transfer day.
Today I would have been PUPO - pregnant until proven otherwise, a term used for women waiting to find out if their IVF cycle worked.
Today, I would have been on bedrest, relaxing, laying around on our bed or the couch reading, watching movies, or catching up on people's blogs.
Instead, today the lab called to confirm what we already know, that my only 2 embryos have arrested.
Because Dr. Hopeful is currently on vacation, one of her partners, Dr. K called today to follow-up with me. There wasn't too much more information he could offer me from this cycle. I will need to follow up with Dr. Hopeful when she gets back from vacation on April 5th. I will have to leave all my questions I have until I see her face-to-face.
Of course the first available appointment to see her is over a month away on May 5th. But the receptionist said she would leave a message for Dr. Hopeful and they will try to squeeze me in as soon as possible. More waiting ahead.
Also, I was told to continue my Endome.trin suppositories for a total of 10 days. Then I should expect AF to show up within 3 to 5 days of stopping. Just in time for Easter. Great. Such a waste of meds and effort for nothing.
My sister reminded me last night that around this time a year ago we had been dealing with the disappointment of the BFN from my first IVF. I looked back at last year's calendar.
March 19th 2009, I found out that we had a BFN from my first IVF.
March 19th 2010, I had my egg retrieval for my second IVF. It was also the day I found out we could retrieve eggs from the left ovary only. From there on, things kept going downhill.
I know this may sound silly, but I want to remember today.
Today, March 24th 2010, would have been the day we transfered my embryos back. It is not to be.
But I want to remember today anyways. I don't want to forget.