I went to a happy hour gathering yesterday because my friend Ro, who also happens to be an ex-colleague of mine, is leaving her job (the company I used to work at before I left due to the stress). In a way, it was nice to see some former colleagues that I have not seen in over a year.
It was fun to see how everyone is doing, and how I am so not missing the workload of my high-stress job. In a way, I miss working and miss hanging out with people I worked with. It's weird how we were able to just pick up on conversations, but also feel like I have missed out on a chunk of people's lives since I have been gone. Also found out that one of the guys that was on my team is going to be a father in October. I'm happy for him though, really. I thought I would feel a pang of jealousy when I heard about it, but I surprised myself when I didn't.
I left my job in January of 2009. So, I knew going into this gathering that I was going to get a lot of "So, what have you been up to?" questions. "Not too much" was my response. Some ask if I've been looking for a job or just taking time off, and I was honest and replied mostly enjoying my time off, and that I did some traveling.
I left my job because of the stress, and I am convinced it was affecting my fertility and TTC efforts. I had tried my first round of IVF overseas in March 2009 after I left, and when that didn't work, we just took some time off TTC fertility treatments (honestly, do we ever quit trying, even if we are officially "not trying") until my last IVF last March.
But I didn't plan so much for the "What do you do all day?" question. Ugh.... how do you answer that? That I spend time writing my IF blog? That I read IF related blogs all day? That I am spending thousand of dollars trying to get knocked up instead of working and making money? That I am running around town to my RE's clinic for ultrasound and so someone can stick a needle in my arm to draw blood? That I am shooting up hormones in my body so I can produce lots of eggs and feel bloated? That I am NOT looking for a job because I am still hoping to have normal quality eggs so we can spend another crap load of money on trying to have a baby? Yeah, that would go really well.
"Not much" was my answer, and that was about it. Couldn't really expand much on that, and it didn't sound too convincing either I'm sure.
In the end, my overall response was, "No I'm not seriously looking yet, but we'll see how long that lasts". That's the truth. It will all depend on the results of our Karotype testing. We should hear in a couple of weeks.