It's been almost 2 weeks since my last post. I've been in a bit of a funk...... feeling left behind by all of the pregnancy good news. Like the world is passing me by. I've heard that there are at least 5 confirmed pregnancies from the March transfer at NEDC. Plus one from one of my blog readers. March was a good month I guess.
I'm just waiting for time to pass, for the May transfer to come along. I have yet to find out what my transfer date is but I will have it before the end of the week. I found out that Katie, the NEDC nurse that I have been working with for the past year is leaving and her last day is this Friday. I will miss her and her quirky sense of humor. She is supposed to have our protocols out to us before she leaves, so I am expecting to get the protocol in the next couple of days, by Friday. I expect that once I receive the protocol, things will start feeling like it is moving along again.
I want to thank you for the comments you left at my last post. It was a bit of a downer, but it was how I felt at that time. I always want to be honest and sincere here on my blog. I was so touched by the kind comments and also emails, FB messages and texts I received. I have received more than one message that said that because of my blog, I made a difference in their lives. I am so humbled and touched by this. Infertility is such a difficult journey and sharing it not only helps makes it easier for me, but it also touches the lives of others. And for that I am grateful.
This last few weeks have been tough. A few of my friends have told me that I am a strong person, that my faith shows. Honestly, lately I feel like my faith has been shaken. I still believe in God, and that He has a plan for me. I just wonder what His plans really are, and if that includes having children in our family, or how those children will come to us. I know God has a plan for good things for me, but in the thick and thin of this right now, it is hard to see what it is.
So my question for you, dear readers, is what gets you through your toughest times? When you think the world is going to hell, and you are about to give up, what do you turn to? Would you share a bible verse with me? A quote? A poem?
I'd like to get this together and print them on 4x6 cards and bind them together in ring. Something I can read and meditate on when I am down. I put together a collection of bible verses for a friend when her husband was fighting cancer and I'd like to do the same here.
I already have a few bible verses I have saved, but would love to hear what yours are. I still cling to this:
Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.