I woke up today to this posting on Face.book. A woman gives birth to not one, but TWO sets of twins on the same day! They were hoping to grow to a family of 4, instead now they are a family of 7. And no fertility treatments either.
Sigh.... fluke of nature, or blessing of God?
You may notice that I have had a little makeover on my blog. Changed my background... it's about time. I've had the same look for quite a while. I also went and updated the blogs I follow. That was quite hard to do. Going through and deciding which blogs I no longer wanted to follow was quite emotional. The blogs I used to follow were mostly infertility and IVF related. It's hard to see most people have moved on to blogging about parenting, with lots of updates and photos about their babies and toddlers. Some even moving on to their 2nd or third child.
It is a great blessing to see that people have moved on and fulfilled their dreams. Yet at the same time, though I am not in the very same position as I was a couple of years ago, I still don't have a baby in my arms. I can't help it, but the feeling of jealousy, anger and frustration just pops back up. I have to remind myself that God has a plan for my life, and it is good. This is the journey He has chosen for me, and I will walk it in faith.
So, I've updated my list to follow more embryo adoption and traditional adoption related blogs. I know that some of you that used to be on my list of blogs I follow still stop by here. I hope you understand and are not offended that I am no longer following you.