Tuesday, July 5, 2011

ONE

One. That's how many we had to transfer this morning.

When Dr. K (one of our RE's partners) came in and we saw he had a photo of one embryo, we knew we weren't going to have good news.  He went over our embryology report with us, and pretty much all the other embryos had stopped growing except for one.  It was at a morula stage, which means it was at a day 4 stage (today is day 6), it was not even at a blastocyst stage yet.  I asked the doc what our chances are with this one embryo, and he said "not good".  I wonder if it will continue to grow.


The transfer went well without incident.  I did fairly well of not filling my bladder too full, but yet enough I didn't need a catheter put it.  Babe and I were able to view the entire process on the ultrasound monitor.  Dr. K pretty much walked us through the whole process.  He did a trial transfer first, to make sure there were no issues with access.  Pretty neat to be able to see the catheter enter into the uterus via the cervix, release the embryo, and then back out.  The embryology tech also checked the catheter under the microscope after to make sure there was nothing left in the catheter after.  They took an ultrasound picture of the process, but I'll have to post it later when I get Babe to scan it.  


After the procedure, I had to lay on the table for 10 minutes before allowing to get up and use the bathroom.  Then I rested in the recovery room for another 30 minutes before we were allowed to go home. On the way home, we stopped by and did some Chinese take-out.  Got home, had lunch, and took a nap.  I wasn't really planning on napping, but I think the "happy pill" totally relaxed me and made me sleepy.  I got up at 5:30 pm, and the day's almost over.


So, that's where we are.  Transferred one not-great quality embryo.  No twins, nothing to freeze.  We didn't get  a chance to decide how many we wanted to transfer either.

This is not what we had hoped for considering our numbers - 12 retrieved, 8 matured, 7 fertilized, 5 embryos still going yesterday, and today, only one left.  But it is what it is.  I'm trying to remain hopeful,  but to be honest, it's getting pretty difficult.

 Beta is on 7/13.

We are now praying for a miracle.

13 comments:

  1. I'm right here with you praying for your miracle. They happen!!! I'm proof and am on my knees praying for you.

    Biggest hugs

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  2. Sigh, I have been there before (10 retrieved, one left to transfer that was behind.) I am crossing my fingers for you, miracles do happen!

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  3. Good luck to you - you beta is one day after mine! Sticky baby dust to you x x x

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  4. I know it sucks, but I'm praying for a miracle. I had the same issues with our embryos they all just stopped dividing or we'd transfer ok ones and get chemicals. I'm convinced the only reason why it finally worked is they froze at day 2 and transferred at day 3. I know you're sad, but that one made it for a reason, keep believing!

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  5. I am saying prayers for your one embabie.....

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  6. Thinking of you and sending all my positive thoughts your way! Come one "lone ranger!!!" You can do it!

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  7. Don't give up hope. I have heard of success stories with very similar situations. Good luck!

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  8. I feel like we are on the same journey and I we have to stay positive. I know we don't have the best odds but really IVF is a long shot anyways. It is such a mystery how we could have so many eggs with such low quality embryos. I am thinking of you and hoping we can celebrate our BFP together. Boo to having nothing to freeze!!

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  9. I happened to drive by the clinic today right about the time you had your transfer and was hoping you were getting wonderful news. Sorry to hear so many of your little ones stopped growing, but hoping that the one is THE ONE!

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  10. Sending my prayers too! Miracles happen daily, and I'm hoping this is your time!

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  11. As I read this I kept singing the song "One Singular Sensation" from a Chorus Line in my head. I am taking that as a good sign!

    "One singular sensation
    Every little step she takes.
    One thrilling combination
    Every move that she makes.
    One smile and suddenly nobody else will do;
    You know you'll never be lonely with you know who."

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  12. I know this is so hard. I've been there. But please know that God already knows the outcome, and if it is a baby, that one embryo will make it, regardless of the others that are now in heaven. Set your eyes on the things above.

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