Sunday, January 23, 2011

Left Behind

I'm feeling left behind.  It feels like the rest of the world is moving on, and here I am still in the same old place.  Nothing has changed in the baby department.

Last Friday, I became an aunt.  Again.

My SIL just gave birth to a baby boy, their second child.  This is the same SIL that I found out she was pregnant because my MIL accidently let the cat out of the bag.  I'm happy for her, but sad for us.  This nephew is the first male baby in Babe's family that will carry on our last name.  They beat us to it.  Babe's brother is younger than us, married later than us, but had their first AND second child before we even had our first.  So here we are..... our 8th niece/nephew on Babe's side of the family.  We have 3 on my side.

Then, my good friend in Indiana, just gave birth to a beautiful baby girl.  I'm so happy for her.  This is her second baby, her first was a boy.  They struggled for a few years trying to conceive their first baby.  And her second, it was unplanned.

In our infertility support group, a few more people have made progress.  One gal who is doing embryo adoption has her home study approved, and has been matched with a family.  She will have her embryo transfer in March.  Another couple is in the process of being placed with a 7-month of baby girl.  Another girl has started her adoption process.  A couple more are in the middle, or about to start their IVF cycle.  So almost everyone is making some kind of progress.

Now that I am finally slowly stepping back into the blog world, I am also finding that  a lot of people have either gotten pregnant, have delivered their babies, or have brought home their adopted babies.  It's wonderful news, because that's what we all want.... to be parents.  But it's also hard to read sometimes.

I feel like I have been left behind, and can't wait to get back in the bandwagon.  But at the same time, I wonder if I really want to, or have what it takes to do it all over again.

I'm sure I will.  I do want to.  I just have to find strength to pick myself up and just do it!


  1. I'm in the Left Behind group too and I know exactly how you feel! I feel like I have to keep switching the blogs I read every 3 or 4 months because everyone I follow ends up getting pregnant

  2. I'm also a member of the Left Behind group. I frequent a couple forums, and in my "buddy groups" most of the girls are pregnant or have already had their babies. I am finding it increasingly difficult to deal with.

    I hope you find your strength soon :)

  3. i feel your pain. i can relate to your pain. i read a beautiful blog today that i'd like to share with you:

  4. I'm left behind too. I started reading IF blogs three years ago and only 2 or three girls haven't gotten their baby and I am in that really sucks!!

  5. Glad to see you're back to blogging a little after taking a break. I hope your new job has been good to you while you're figuring out your next steps. Extra $$ sure does help!

  6. I'm in the Left Behind group too. You're right, the blogs or groups that I"m a part of, I seem to be the last one standing. I hate this club!!