Baby Nightmare

I was reading JC's "Worst Dream of My Life" post today about her "fake pregnancy" dream and it reminded me of a nightmare I had a few months ago.

I dreamt that I had given birth to a beautiful baby.  I don't remember if it was a boy or girl, or even if I knew what the sex was.

Not long after that I realized that my baby had died because I had forgotten to feed it!!  In my dream, I was trying to explain to the police officer arresting me that I did not mean to kill my baby.  I just forgot to feed it!

Can you imagine, forgetting to feed your own baby?!!  What kind of sick and pathetic mother am I?

You see, I do not have a green thumb at all and have killed every single indoor potted plant I have ever owned.  Okay, so I still have a 5 foot indoor tree sitting in my living room that DH bought this last spring, but it's looking pretty sad right now too.  It only has about half of its leaves still remaining.  I'm really bad about watering my plants. I forget to water them, and then I drown them.

I woke up from this dream thinking, "Oh my God!!  If I can't remember to water my plants, can I remember to feed my own baby?!!"

It actually made me doubt that I would be a good mother.  Thankfully it was only for a short moment.

I so hate stupid weird dreams like that!