It's here again.... ANOTHER BIRTHDAY!
I turn 39 today, my last year in the 30's.
I'm not quite sure how to feel about it. In the past, getting older never really bothered me too much. Thanks to my Asian genes, most people that do not know me very well think I'm younger than I actually am. However, after struggling with infertility for more than 8 years, turning 39.... almost 40 is depressing. My sister-in-law just turned 39 last week, and she has 4 kids, with the oldest being 10. I'm 39 and have zero kids. I remember before she got pregnant with her first, her telling me how important it was that she had to get pregnant before turning 30. Well I'm almost (not quite) 40, and still no kid.
So what can I achieve between now and before I turn 40? Will I have a baby/child before then? Highly unlikely. I will most likely join the older-than-40 first time parents club. I worry I may be getting too old for this.... will I have the energy for kids in my 40's?
Any one of you out there a first time parent in your 40's?
Not-So-Happy Birthday to me.