Not So Anonymous Anymore

Do you write your blog anonymously?  Or do people IRL (in real life) know about your blog?

When I started my blog about a little over a month ago, I wasn't sure if I wanted anyone to know who I was.  I didn't know if I wanted to let my friends or family know about this blog.  Heck, I didn't even know if anyone would even care to read this.  I've seen other blogs where people mention their name and their DH's names.  Even put pictures of themselves and their pets.

Well I am finding out that people DO actually read my blog.  I have had almost 600 visits on my blog since I started tracking it.

Tonight, I finally told my sister about my blog (Hi Sis!!) So far only 3 people actually know about me writing this blog.

• My sister A.  She has always known about our TTC efforts and has continued to support and pray for us.
• My friend J.  J and I went to the same high school and she was one year my senior.  We lost contact after high school and thanks to Facebo.ok, we were reconnected.  Not sure how it came up, but we found out we were both having TTC issues.  She has had 2 failed IVFs, one miscarriage and miraculously conceived naturally after many years.  He baby is now 5 months old.
• My ex-colleague R.  She and I have worked together on a few projects in the past.  After I left my job, we met a few times for lunch to catch up with the happenings around the department and we somehow got talking about babies.  We found out that we have some things in common.  She has been TTC but has issues with fibroids endometriosis.   She just went through surgery to have cysts removed and is now taking a break from TTC to see if the fibroids endometriosis will return.  She is hoping that she will be able to conceive naturally after this.

So now 3 people IRL know about this blog.  I guess it is not so anonymous anymore.  There are a few other people I have contemplated telling but I am holding off for now.  It's one of those things, once you tell someone, you can't undo it.  So I am playing it safe.  I guess it doesn't really matter.  There is a wonderful community of ALI bloggers and readers out there and I am grateful for that.

For now, this blog is semi-anonymous.  Hopefully this blog will one day evolve to being about babies and parenting.  Either way, it is still about baby on my mind.

Harder Than I Thought!

Oh boy!  Blogging is harder than I thought!  Not so much the blogging itself, but where do I start?

I am looking at the many blogs out there and I wonder if I can really do this?

Can I really put down in words what I feel?

Will people really care what I have to say?

How do I describe what I have gone through in the last 6 years without boring everyone to death, and yet I feel like I need to?

I have so much to say, yet where do I start?

It sucks to feel like an amateur in blogging, but yet I've been around the block in the infertility department!!

So all I ask is to please bear with me as do this and hope and that people will actually read what I have to say!

Thanks!!

A New Journey

Well it is time to take a new journey again. After almost 6 years of trying for a baby and a few breaks in between, my hubby and I have decided to start on a new journey of TTC (trying to conceive) again.

I have decided that after years of reading thousands of other people's TTC blogs, it is time for me to start my own. I realized that blogging is possibly the best way for me to share my valleys and peaks with others who has, is, or will be going on the "fun" journey of TTC. It is also the best way for me to journal and remember this journey. After 6 years, I can honestly say I can't remember a lot of the details and wish I kept a better record of all the experiences. All the doctor appointments, blood draws, fertility drugs, etc. Even going over copies of my medical record is hard for me to decipher exactly what happened.

So, from now on, I'm going to blog about it!

Today, I finally called the fertility clinic to set up an appointment to see RE after being away from the clinic for almost 2 years. My next appointment is set for Jan 13th 2010. It has been a tough decision for us to make this appointment.

I will post a brief history of my journey, but that will be for another post! As of today, I am officially blogging!