Monday, October 18, 2010

An Outsider

I feel like an outsider.

It's been more than a month since my last post, and I can't believe it.

I'm a bad blogger......

Ok, now that I've gotten that off my chest, I really do need to apologize for being a bad blogger.  And a bad blog reader.  Like I said, my last post was more then a month ago.  I was a total ICLW failure.  Lots of people stopped by to say hi during ICLW week, but of course I did not comment nor read any blogs that week.  At all.

I feel like a traitor.  Now that I started my job (more than a month ago), I have been too busy and tired to read or update my blog.  And to be honest, work have kept my mind off of TTC.  Except of course those days where AF shows up.  Or I read pregnancy announcements on  Or when we celebrated our niece's first birthday.

But all in all, not thinking about TTC have been good for me, and that's where the feeling like a traitor comes in.  I feel like I have abandoned the TTC community, but I have not!  I also realize that I really miss reading blogs.  And I do miss blogging.  But sometimes, it's also frustrating because I don't really have anything TTC related to update.

I'm also worried to that if start reading blogs again, I'll hear about positive pregnancies and baby updates.  I'm terrified that I will be jealous.  Of course we all hope that those in the TTC community eventually get their dreams of having a baby.  Yet, jealousy is always looming at my doorstep.

So, I guess this is just my way of saying "Hi", that I am still around, and that I have not fallen off the face of the earth.  I hope that you will still continue to read my infrequent postings.

And that I still have Baby On Mind.