IVF, Here We Come

AF arrived today.  She's actually on time.

I had been having slight cramping all day yesterday which I was trying to ignore as much as possible.  Last night, I noticed an itsy bitsy tiny bit of pink spotting when wiping, but again, tried to ignore it.  Some people experience spotting when AF is due, but still get pregnant.  But when I was in the shower last night, I lost it.  I was upset that AF was actually going to be here.  Again.

I was expecting her.  I knew she would be here, it was just a matter of whether she would be on time.  And yet, I was quite surprised at how emotional and sad I was that she was going show up again!

I don't know about you, but I do a lot of my thinking and crying in the shower.  Somehow it's easier to cry.  Maybe it's the sound of the water and the bathroom fan muffling my sobs (I don't like my Babe to see me cry).  Or the hot water washing down my face and body, comforting me while I cry.  Or that fact that I don't need to tissue to blow the snot out of my nose.  I know, that's gross.  More importantly I think the shower allows me to "cleanse" myself, to wash away all my icky burdens, sadness and grief, and watch them all go down the drain.  It always makes me feel better after a shower.  That's why, I always cry in the shower, or at least take a shower after I cry.

I guess I was in denial.  I was hoping I could be one of those lucky people I read about when googling "early pregnancy symptoms" where they were having cramps and were 100% sure their periods were here, but were surprised when it never did show.  Why couldn't I be one of those people.  To be honest, I go through this every month, hoping that the cramps are nothing, but deep down I know that AF is sure to show up.

After my shower, I decided to wear a pad to bed.  No point being in denial.  It was a good thing because AF showed up in full force during the night.

Remember the whole bo.obs discussion I had a few days ago?  Well now I just feel silly.

Today's CD1.  I'll call the clinic tomorrow to schedule my blood work and ultrasound.

IVF, here we come..........

She's Here

AF finally arrived this morning after I woke up from my sleep.  I am not surprised by it, just glad it is finally here.  So it is CD1 today, not CD31.  Time to look forward to the next cycle.

I am still dealing with this dang cold.  So far, I am doing the following to help ease the symptoms:

• Sleeping with a humidifier, plus adding menthol vaporizer to it.
• Drinking home remedy of apple cider vinegar, lemon juice, honey, pinch of cayenne pepper and some warm water.  It's got quite a kick to it, but suppose to work wonders.  We'll see.
• Using the "nettie pot"/ sinus rinse.  I prefer the bottled kind.
• Taking Re.doxon, a vitamin C and zinc supplement that was given to me by my sister.  I guess it is not sold in the US.  It's supposed to be really good too.
• Taking Well.ness Formu.la, an herbal supplement that supposed to be help with your immune system.  The tablets smell really nasty, makes me gag each time I take it.
• Drinking lots of water.
• Made some good old chicken soup.  Will probably make more tomorrow.
• Taking Tylen.ol when I need it.
• Tried smelling some peppermint eucalyptus oil on a tissue last night, but could not smell a thing.  I could tell that my nose was inhaling something, but could not make out what the smell was.

Hope all these will help.  Did I mention I hate being sick?  I could use some more suggestions on how to deal with this cold.  Thanks!